Times pass by us without us noticing it. I am now only left with 4 weeks to finish all my lesson observations. Cleared 3 already. Now left 7. Next week want to clear 3. Then left 4. Hahah.. Cant wait for next week to arrive.
Actually feel quite tired alr. All the endless lesson plans seem to be chasing me like siao. Got one day, i even had a nightmare that i cant finish my lesson plan in time and in the end, failed my practicum. HOPE this doesnt come true.
So far, all my 3 lesson observations gt all proficient. Not bad. Hope that this type of standard goes on. Maintain and distinction shouldnt be too far away. The last lesson observation was terrible. I was preparing all the teaching resources even up to the eleventh hour. Lukily, all went well and my CT says that i have improved a lot since the last lesson ob. Now, she wan me to aim for excelling. Diao... Further stress. She says that the rapport with students was excellent, provided that i onli hav a few weeks with them. During their compo writing, i went ard helping the students. HAHAH... SHe actully says that i painted a very good pic of teachers guiding students. Diao... hahah... But felt quite high when i heard this, like on drugs.
I have recieved a letter from SAF that i own a $60 BIG voucher. This time, i will make sure i go down to collect. Last time, i forgt to go collect and then was wasted in the end.
SAF also gave me another time bomb. Selected me to go for driving course to prepare me for Class 4 driving. WTF! They really so shortage till so jial at ma. SMS my PC but he like in outer space. What can i say ?
Kena 2 parking fines in a month. WTF!Damn suay.
Thursday, April 5
Friday, March 30
30th March 2007
Coming to the end of March liao... One month has passed since my stepping into CHS. OMG! I only finished 2 observations. Win liao lor. Still left 8. My P5 CT is supposed to observe me nxt thur but then, gt swim meet!!! Diao diao.... Think have to postpone to next next week already. Then win liao lor. Next wk gt one observation, the wk after nxt gt 3 observations. This wk no observations at all i alr busy like siao. Cant imagine my week with all 3 observations.
I don like tue and thur. These are the days I have 1st period lesson. Sianz lor. I need to reach school early to prepare and worse, print things cos i don hav printer @ home. Now slp so little, panda eyes cmg out soon. My body is lethargic and lifeless. Quite burnt out alr. Hope that after my prac, i can go overseas to recharge.
I gt 2 prac friends in NIE tat are on cold war. They are nt talking to each other lor. Both of them thinks that the other party is soooo childish.. Ai yo! So sianz to be trapped inbetween them. I am "close" to both of them and then, i am like trapped inbetween them... this is SIANZ X 1000000.... Hope they can patch up soon. Wat happend if they continue like this and then, whamp! They go to the same school later.. God knows wat will happen then. But if tat;s the case, don let me be in the same sch as them. I will die a terrible death.
Recently taken up 2 more tuition assignments. Caluculated the amount. Haha.. Quite a substantial amt. I am kept so busy with all these tuition and sch stuff. Tired but contended.
Lean onto the Father's arm and you will enjoy peace ever after.
I don like tue and thur. These are the days I have 1st period lesson. Sianz lor. I need to reach school early to prepare and worse, print things cos i don hav printer @ home. Now slp so little, panda eyes cmg out soon. My body is lethargic and lifeless. Quite burnt out alr. Hope that after my prac, i can go overseas to recharge.
I gt 2 prac friends in NIE tat are on cold war. They are nt talking to each other lor. Both of them thinks that the other party is soooo childish.. Ai yo! So sianz to be trapped inbetween them. I am "close" to both of them and then, i am like trapped inbetween them... this is SIANZ X 1000000.... Hope they can patch up soon. Wat happend if they continue like this and then, whamp! They go to the same school later.. God knows wat will happen then. But if tat;s the case, don let me be in the same sch as them. I will die a terrible death.
Recently taken up 2 more tuition assignments. Caluculated the amount. Haha.. Quite a substantial amt. I am kept so busy with all these tuition and sch stuff. Tired but contended.
Lean onto the Father's arm and you will enjoy peace ever after.
Monday, March 26
Starting of a new week
Its the start of the new week today. Don know why the hell I woke uop so early for. I think i will go back to slp ltr, haha....
Last fri was damn depressing. Hope that this week will be much better. Today will be e-learning for the P4 and 5s. Which means, I get to hav the day off coz my P3 class is onli one period today! Yeah!!! Can have more time to do my lesson plans and teaching resource. Thank God for the extra time.
Over the weekends, I finished all my markings. Hiaz... Don think its easy hor, actually quite difficult. One word, the kids can find so many different ways to write it wrongly. And this is a good class somemore, future GEP class. Wonder how the poorer class will perform.
Kinda like my lifestyle now. Morning go school, afternoon try to sneak in some time to do marking or sleep, evening go tuition. This routine goes on for all 5 weekdays. Hahah... Not bad. Time flies like no one's biz and it kept me busy. Helps to save $$$ too as it involves earning $$$ and not spending it. Working out my lesson fees, I realise that it goes up to $1.1K. Now hope to get a Sunday early evening tuition job and then, I am all not accepting anymore. Tutoring all boys, haha... All of them quite cute and obedient. Lucky don hav those that are defiant and rude.
Tat fri when i was depressed. On sat, one of my tuition kid, Andre, called me to ask me how was my day and some homework questions. I don know what is his main purpose in calling me (juz asking me how my day was or asking me homework questions) but i just feel so appreciated when he asked in his childish manner," Teacher Matthew, Andre here. What are you doing now? How was your day?" Haha... He jus made my day brighten up and forget all depressing stuff i encounter the day before.
On sat, I went out with my army friends. Went for a Mr Bean movie followed by dinner @ Fish and Co and rounded up by dessert in Bugis. Was quite happy during this outing. Though its another all guys outing, but i actually enjoyed the time. All guys jus fooling ard and joking like idiots from planet Mars, haha... Been a long time since i last went out with them. The last time was the potluck dinner a.k.a Mahjong session @ my place. When i was driving Quek back ,I actually gt a new revelation. Though i was complaining abt army and wasting of my time there,I actually made quite a bit of friends there. We sort of lost touch once we ORD but luckily for reservist, we mananged to retrieve back all the contacts. At least, the bunch of us are going out on a constant basis. At least, we tried our best to hav a group outing once a month or so. The gang is the usual one: KT, Quek (sometimes fly kite one though), Adrian (quite onz. Nvr miss any outing so far), Hui Beng (though reserved @ times), Kuan Koon (most of the time can come out unless he is busy making money), Ngai anf of course HANDSOME ME! hhahahah... Buay yao bai!
Father, I thank you in the name of Jesus for placing PEOPLE in my life for a purpose. Some, You have placed there so that i can become stronger and more firm. Some, you have placed them to brighten up my day. I thank You for the kids you have placed in my everyday. They jus seem to be the candles that the flame will burn on eternally. though some jus want to burn themselves out asap. I thank You for the lessons I have learnt and the happiness I have experienced in this colourful life of mine. I thank You for all these things, in Jesus name.
Last fri was damn depressing. Hope that this week will be much better. Today will be e-learning for the P4 and 5s. Which means, I get to hav the day off coz my P3 class is onli one period today! Yeah!!! Can have more time to do my lesson plans and teaching resource. Thank God for the extra time.
Over the weekends, I finished all my markings. Hiaz... Don think its easy hor, actually quite difficult. One word, the kids can find so many different ways to write it wrongly. And this is a good class somemore, future GEP class. Wonder how the poorer class will perform.
Kinda like my lifestyle now. Morning go school, afternoon try to sneak in some time to do marking or sleep, evening go tuition. This routine goes on for all 5 weekdays. Hahah... Not bad. Time flies like no one's biz and it kept me busy. Helps to save $$$ too as it involves earning $$$ and not spending it. Working out my lesson fees, I realise that it goes up to $1.1K. Now hope to get a Sunday early evening tuition job and then, I am all not accepting anymore. Tutoring all boys, haha... All of them quite cute and obedient. Lucky don hav those that are defiant and rude.
Tat fri when i was depressed. On sat, one of my tuition kid, Andre, called me to ask me how was my day and some homework questions. I don know what is his main purpose in calling me (juz asking me how my day was or asking me homework questions) but i just feel so appreciated when he asked in his childish manner," Teacher Matthew, Andre here. What are you doing now? How was your day?" Haha... He jus made my day brighten up and forget all depressing stuff i encounter the day before.
On sat, I went out with my army friends. Went for a Mr Bean movie followed by dinner @ Fish and Co and rounded up by dessert in Bugis. Was quite happy during this outing. Though its another all guys outing, but i actually enjoyed the time. All guys jus fooling ard and joking like idiots from planet Mars, haha... Been a long time since i last went out with them. The last time was the potluck dinner a.k.a Mahjong session @ my place. When i was driving Quek back ,I actually gt a new revelation. Though i was complaining abt army and wasting of my time there,I actually made quite a bit of friends there. We sort of lost touch once we ORD but luckily for reservist, we mananged to retrieve back all the contacts. At least, the bunch of us are going out on a constant basis. At least, we tried our best to hav a group outing once a month or so. The gang is the usual one: KT, Quek (sometimes fly kite one though), Adrian (quite onz. Nvr miss any outing so far), Hui Beng (though reserved @ times), Kuan Koon (most of the time can come out unless he is busy making money), Ngai anf of course HANDSOME ME! hhahahah... Buay yao bai!
Father, I thank you in the name of Jesus for placing PEOPLE in my life for a purpose. Some, You have placed there so that i can become stronger and more firm. Some, you have placed them to brighten up my day. I thank You for the kids you have placed in my everyday. They jus seem to be the candles that the flame will burn on eternally. though some jus want to burn themselves out asap. I thank You for the lessons I have learnt and the happiness I have experienced in this colourful life of mine. I thank You for all these things, in Jesus name.
Friday, March 23
Sad Sad Day
I went to my class today to do relief for their Eng teacher. I was trying my best to build rapport with them. However, the results told me that my aim was not achieved.
I muz admit. The first few times i went into 5D, i was very harsh on them. This was due to their ruly behaviour. Everyone was talking while their teacher was talking. OMG! I gt a shock of my life. Fearing the same might happen to me, i was very harsh on them on the few times i have with them initially.
There is this boy in my class called Zhengli. He is fat, rude, lazy and watever u can imagine a student can be, he is the one. I stepped into the class and he started to call me names. I've tried my best to ignore him but he is like, juz super loud lor. My CT has warned me about him and told me to ignore. Hence, i juz ignore. He juz thinks that i don dare to scold him and jus get from bad to worse.
I really don know wat to do. I juz kept my cool and went on with class. I endure the best i can. Finally, the bell rang. Without hesitation, i went out of the class without gretting the class and went straight to toilet. In the toilet, I juz break down. I felt so disappointed and stressed. I wan to help the class achieve better grades. Am i really tat lousy? Am i really not suitable for teaching? Felt so sad and demoralised ever since i joined the service.
Father, I hav lost all strength. Please give me the power once again.
I muz admit. The first few times i went into 5D, i was very harsh on them. This was due to their ruly behaviour. Everyone was talking while their teacher was talking. OMG! I gt a shock of my life. Fearing the same might happen to me, i was very harsh on them on the few times i have with them initially.
There is this boy in my class called Zhengli. He is fat, rude, lazy and watever u can imagine a student can be, he is the one. I stepped into the class and he started to call me names. I've tried my best to ignore him but he is like, juz super loud lor. My CT has warned me about him and told me to ignore. Hence, i juz ignore. He juz thinks that i don dare to scold him and jus get from bad to worse.
I really don know wat to do. I juz kept my cool and went on with class. I endure the best i can. Finally, the bell rang. Without hesitation, i went out of the class without gretting the class and went straight to toilet. In the toilet, I juz break down. I felt so disappointed and stressed. I wan to help the class achieve better grades. Am i really tat lousy? Am i really not suitable for teaching? Felt so sad and demoralised ever since i joined the service.
Father, I hav lost all strength. Please give me the power once again.
Wednesday, March 21
1st Lesson Observation
Went thru my 1st lesson observation. Was a bit nervous about it initially. Prepare the IT stuff like siao. Even up to the last min before my supervisor came, i was still adjusting my lesson resources. Hahah...
Luckily it all went well. The supervisor said i improved thousand folds since the last practicum. Everything was ok till the grp work. He says that my management of grp work still a bit noisy and unruly. Hahah... Hmmm.. Needs to improve on tat. As for the other things, I managed to get proficient for all. Not bad,considering i only get majority Proficient the last time round. This time, except for Classroom Management, I get all other proficient. Actually, i saw the supervisor marks on the Proficient under the Classroom management section. Then he corrected that away and changed tat to acceptable. I think i can do ok in my grp work juz now, i can get all proficient. Haiz... Miss tat pt but juz so much. Muz work harder on my other observations.
Tmr is my first lesson with the P5 class. Hope everything goes well. The OBESE, RUDE, UNRULY,ATTENTION SEEKING AND SO CALLED ADHD guy is absent today. I know i shouldnt think like this buy i really hope that he will be absebt tmr. At least, don create more trouble than necessarily for my first lesson with them.
Father, i pray you let me lie in your arms forever.
Luckily it all went well. The supervisor said i improved thousand folds since the last practicum. Everything was ok till the grp work. He says that my management of grp work still a bit noisy and unruly. Hahah... Hmmm.. Needs to improve on tat. As for the other things, I managed to get proficient for all. Not bad,considering i only get majority Proficient the last time round. This time, except for Classroom Management, I get all other proficient. Actually, i saw the supervisor marks on the Proficient under the Classroom management section. Then he corrected that away and changed tat to acceptable. I think i can do ok in my grp work juz now, i can get all proficient. Haiz... Miss tat pt but juz so much. Muz work harder on my other observations.
Tmr is my first lesson with the P5 class. Hope everything goes well. The OBESE, RUDE, UNRULY,ATTENTION SEEKING AND SO CALLED ADHD guy is absent today. I know i shouldnt think like this buy i really hope that he will be absebt tmr. At least, don create more trouble than necessarily for my first lesson with them.
Father, i pray you let me lie in your arms forever.
Monday, March 19
19 March 2007
Its 0751hr now. Hahha... Still blogging while in school. Have lesson @ 0805hrs. It raining cats and dogs now. Felt so cold in the staff room.
Woke up only at 0630hr today. Was thinking how good the day will go when i hav a bad start. Luckily, i was on time and reached the school before it starts to pour. Seems like the rest of the day should go well with a slightly cold weather. Will go into the P5 class later. Hope everything goes well.
Father, i pray that you give me strength to pass this day. I pray that today will be a day where i don feel dejected but energized in your arms. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen!
Woke up only at 0630hr today. Was thinking how good the day will go when i hav a bad start. Luckily, i was on time and reached the school before it starts to pour. Seems like the rest of the day should go well with a slightly cold weather. Will go into the P5 class later. Hope everything goes well.
Father, i pray that you give me strength to pass this day. I pray that today will be a day where i don feel dejected but energized in your arms. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen!
Sunday, March 18
Charity In Singapore
Juz watched the Ren Ci Charity Show in Singapore. The Reverend said," Each person is just like a grain of sand." HOw true is tat? There are numerous charity organisations in the small country of Singapore. How many of them still hold on to the love for the less fortunate? As i watched the show and the many testimonals, tears roll down my cheeks. I felt so sorry for those lying in bed, unable to move or think. Do they deserve such fate? Half of them hav families and friends out in the world caring for them. Why do they hav to face such difficulties and bring such torture to their beloved ones?
I come from a charitable organization myself. The motto: For the Service of Mankind. We are supposed to dedicate ourselves to helping the less fortunate. However, what i can see now is, people are holding on to power. Maybe I, myself is commiting this mistake. What is the meaning of doing volunteer work? What is the meaning of doing charity works?
Looking @ the history, tis organisation was born out of the goodwill of people. They selflessly commit themselves to help the sick and the desolate. They survived the hardship due to the commitment they set for themselves. The small grp of selfless volunteers grew to a large organisation due to the love they hav for the less fortunate.
Now, they hav evolved. Power struggle became common. Whatever happen to the "I stay not bcos of rank and power. I STAY bcos i commit myself to helping the less fortunate." People juz holding onto power, lower ranks volunteers try to get to the top of the management regardless of friendship, charitable org held up to court..... What is the true meaning of volunteerism? Can anyone help me with this question.
Dear Father. I pray, Father. Please help me find the true meaning of volunteerism. Please help me find the meaning of showing selfless care for the others. Am I right in staying on or is it time for me to leave? Hav i overstayed my welcome or hav i moved to a stage where i have become stagnant? Someone said that each of us is a grain of sand. Since the effort is so small individually, can we do something more by staying united? Father, I pray, Father! I think i hav fallen into the pit hole. Please help me Father to climb out of the dark, cold hole. Hold me in Your arms and give me warmth. Help me rekindle the fire of compassion and care and concern. Show me the light so taht i can spread to others. Do not let me be narrow minded but to embrace everyone regardless of their actions. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen!
I come from a charitable organization myself. The motto: For the Service of Mankind. We are supposed to dedicate ourselves to helping the less fortunate. However, what i can see now is, people are holding on to power. Maybe I, myself is commiting this mistake. What is the meaning of doing volunteer work? What is the meaning of doing charity works?
Looking @ the history, tis organisation was born out of the goodwill of people. They selflessly commit themselves to help the sick and the desolate. They survived the hardship due to the commitment they set for themselves. The small grp of selfless volunteers grew to a large organisation due to the love they hav for the less fortunate.
Now, they hav evolved. Power struggle became common. Whatever happen to the "I stay not bcos of rank and power. I STAY bcos i commit myself to helping the less fortunate." People juz holding onto power, lower ranks volunteers try to get to the top of the management regardless of friendship, charitable org held up to court..... What is the true meaning of volunteerism? Can anyone help me with this question.
Dear Father. I pray, Father. Please help me find the true meaning of volunteerism. Please help me find the meaning of showing selfless care for the others. Am I right in staying on or is it time for me to leave? Hav i overstayed my welcome or hav i moved to a stage where i have become stagnant? Someone said that each of us is a grain of sand. Since the effort is so small individually, can we do something more by staying united? Father, I pray, Father! I think i hav fallen into the pit hole. Please help me Father to climb out of the dark, cold hole. Hold me in Your arms and give me warmth. Help me rekindle the fire of compassion and care and concern. Show me the light so taht i can spread to others. Do not let me be narrow minded but to embrace everyone regardless of their actions. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen!
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