LHF

Light Hearted Friday!

Yesterday, I went to take care of the class. It was post PSLE period and I let them do what they wan. I expect to see the entire class divide into different groups and play but to my surprise, they did not. Yes, they did divide themselves into 3 groups but only one group played games. The other group sit down and just chit chat while the last group came to my table and chit chat with me.

We chat about many things. Memories of the past flodd back as we chat about the funny antics of the past. HOe i tried to act fierce when i first stepped into the classroom, how i tried my best to stop a particular someone from throwing the table.... We just chat and chat while memories turned and flowed.

After about a period or so, E came to me. I was quite surprised when he started to talk some philosophical stuff with me. He even shared some personal matters with me like his family and friends, even without me probing him. He just came like water gushing out. I wonder if thats the result of too much control at home. He started talking like a 20 year old and how his character is like.

I think his main problem with his friend is 太讲义气,which is what i used to be. I would stand up for my friend and forgive and forget very quickly. But as I grow up, this 太讲义气starts to regress and now hides in a corner,with cobwebs spinning. Does the pressure from the society thumbs you down or is it that this 太讲义气 too childish that i start to grow out of it?

Next, I went to Tea Chapter with some of the P6 students, tog with a few teachers. They had a hands on Mooncake making session and tea appreciation time. I sat down with two groups and we laughed and talked. One particular group i didnt really know them but nevertheless, when i sat down with them, they just include me inside their conversation.

At that spilt of the moment, I began to understand why my ambition is to become a teacher. Not to rise up among the ranks, not to 勾心斗角with one another, but to appreciate time with the kids and mould them,to the best of our ability. Though i was not in the service for long, i managed to have a class that fulfil this dream, though it was a regret that i didnt managed to bring them up to graduation.

My 3 and 4s were equally nice though at times, they really make me puke blood. Whenever i informed the class that i need go for other stuff and could not go into class that particular day, they will always go "Huh? 为什么您每次都去上课的？" Maybe that is also the result of they not liking the relief but i just felt happy that they wanted me to teach them. I didnt managed my dream of letting them play a game each week and I just teach normally. But they seemed to like my style and a few students even managed to improve their grades throughout the year.

It was a good consolation and motivation for me to carry on in this service.