Awakening Moment???

Had quite a disturbed weekend.

Last fri, the P disclosed who are the promotees. I was not one of them. Frankly speaking, I was expecting to be one of them. Last year, i wasnt one of them and was quite disturbed by the fact that those with degress got their promotion eralier than me, though I did more than them. Even one of my fellow NIE classmate, three years older than me, got his promotion last year. This weekend, with disappointment, i spent quite a deal time pondering over my actions and deeds for last year.

True enough, i had a parent complaint and i didnt follow the SOW. And I thought that affected my promotion. Though indirectly, it didnt affect my promo, it still did in my PB.

E and S said something this evening that suddenly struck me. They said that I need to present myself as more mature and speak appropriately at times. Think this is what people say as grow up. I think its in my character that I belong to the more child-like type. Even as a leader, I would protray some child-like charateristics. When I led my team of adults to Laos this year, I also had a difficult time trying to be serious. Had a bit of difficulty. Had to act more mature and had to think a lot so as to let people entrust confidence in you. Not that I was super sucessful, but at least I tried. S also mentioned that i should stop my child-like manners.

Haiz... Think this is what they call grow up... Think its about time for me to grow up... Bye bye, Matthew...

MINDS Family Day

Today was YEP ten year anniversary celebration. To commemorate this day, they had a Service Learning marathon which i participated.

I went to Fernvale Minds to help out in their Family Day.. Reach there at 10am to help set up the place. Went for lunch only at 1215pm.. Instead of catering lunch for us, they gave us $3 to let us decide what we want to eat.. Haha... This decision was so much the better...

Returned at 1pm to continue to see what we can do... The participants arrived at around 130pm... Though they were much what i expected, i was overwhelmed too..

Some of them were highly functional, which i think can jolly well take care of themselves in daily activities.. But what about those major decisions in life ? Are they able to make decisions ?

Come to think about it... What about those who are worse ? I see some who are already greying at the sideburns, but still holding on tightly to their ageing mother's hand. As much as the mother might be walking with a slight tremble, the mothers still worry about their son/daughter's next school day programme and stuff.. 天下父母心...

天下的父母一辈子为儿女操劳。他们何时才能放下这个重重的负担，享受天伦之乐，想清福呢？一生的儿女债，何年何月何日才能还清呢？

Random Thoughts....

Was on bed just now thinking about things ive done last year... Suddenly think my PB this year will be quite low ba...