Fears

Every single one of us have fears...

Some have fears about going into the deep waters, some have fears about taking a lift, some have fears about talking to strangers.

My buddy going for his Lasik tmr. He gt the pre-op jittery and was worrying about the op the whole day through.

Yo Buddy, no prob one la.... I gt the jittery a few hrs before the op too... But before you know it, everything will be over soon and you have the joy of your life bouncing without the stupid thingy bouncing on your nose... The experience is worth the result... Don worry too much...

Have a good nite slp and wait in excitement about tmr... After tmr, u will be different...

Amazed!!

I am so amazed by my relief Tr.....

She maanged to finish 3 chapters in two weeks leh... Wah... How come she can go super fast??? If she really can teach and the stuents can learn and still manage to go so fast, then i gt lots to learn from her man!!!

27th Sep 2009

Not sure why but today i am feeling so sianz.... Maybe its the thought of going back to school tmr, after three weeks of non-schooling.

Was on reservist the last two weeks. Though i was feeling quite sianz about it, but time really flies then... Bonding with each other in the bunk, playing our fav Bridge Tournament. Chatting up with old friends. Waking up to eat breakfast and then going back to slp till time to work. Not having any responsibilities on the shoulder. Haiz....

I was complaining about going in nad now, why am I missing it ?

The Starfish

There was once a man who was picking up the starfish along the shores and throwing them back into the sea. A little boy saw him and asked him why is he doing it? The man replied," Because i want to save the starfish." The boy laughed for it was impossible to save a;ll the starfish along the shore. Before long, the sun is going to be up and the starfish will die. However, the man persisted and picked up one of the starfish. He threw it back into the water and said," At least i made a difference in that particular starfish."

Educators are in the same position as the man. We meet many lost and alone starfishes along the shore and its entirely up to us to see what we can salvage for them. Many lost starfishes get lost in their direction of life and taken many turns in life before finding their final destination. Wat educators need to do is to throw back as many starfishes to the seas. SOme might be half dried up with slim chances of living. Some might be just hoping u give it one more chance by throwing it back to the sea so that it could live on.

However, how many of us actually stopped and think about saving their lives, no matter how little we might save....

Open Water Diving

Had confirmed with a Open Water Diving centre with regards to learning Open Water Dive at Phuket, Patong Beach March next year. Hope that i can sucessfully learn diving over there. Nve been snokelling but wan learn open water dive... Literally translate to Learn to run before walking, haha...

Anyway, been surfing the website about phuket. Anyone here knows any cheap and good hotels in Phuket, near Patong Beach? I am searching for one now, on net... If u know, please tell me.

Reservist (5th Day)

Finished the 5th day of ICT.

Till now, not too bad, just that had to do many times mortar drills. Still had fun with my detachment.

From Monday till now, my reservist nights are spent reading either story books or playing cards "Bridge". I now refer to ICT as "Bridge" game revision. Ever since the 1st ICT, we have been playing this game ever since. Now, every year we meet together to do our revision on "Bridge".

Tmr is book out day! Finally can watch my Mobtv shows. Missed out so many shows that i wan to watch. But in the morning still have mortar drills. Sianz................

4th Day Reservist

Today already Thursday. Two more days before i can go out to Civilian life.

Had a heart to heart talk with someone last night. Learnt about things that i didnt know. Both of us were busy and didnt have the chance to meet up. But ok la, thru the talk last night, get more updates from him. At times like tat, i actually felt good that i can be someone that he can confide in me. I also want to find friends whom i can confide in...

Running into a relationship is not encouraged, esp by me. I feel that if a relationship is built up too fast, it is not stable and hence, that is why i took such a long time. But i also see a few couples who had a fast relationship and its now bearing the fruits of labour. But as stated, its a few... I have seen too mnay fast and unstable relationship who ended up in dire straits.

More and less, i have settled down in the reservist life. Life wasnt that bad during this reservist. Though i had a encik and Lta who seems like they don really know what they are doing, i had a great time with my detachment.

I was doing mortar drill with my detachment today and it brought back memories of my active time. My detachment is more or less the same, less for two persons who came to top up my detachment cause one downgraded and one gt MC to go home.

S was as usual. Being the clown of the detachment, he has certainly brought us much laughter amist the tough weather. He wittyly said some things that will have us smile and laugh... K was ok as well. Had some time to talk to him during the drills and since i am sleeping beside him as well, i had some time to catch up with him. Realised that he has 收敛 quite a bit in his attitude. What used to be a quick tempered young man has matured into a discipled person. Talked about many life principles and life perspectives. F was ok. Save for a few witty statements, he was generally quiet as usual. W, the person whom i dislike in the detachment, has downgraded. Hmm... Ok, not really dislike... But sometimes when he makes comments that made u feel real stupid, which happens quite often, you just feel like ignoring him. L was on MC. Had some psychological prob. Hope he can recover from that and join back the detachment soon. I miss the times we had when we were talking nonsense in our detachment, not doing drills under the hot drilling sun. I miss the times where we would cook food in mess things, with fire started with solid fuel. I miss the times, where we sit together and complain about everything.... I miss the times, when we shared about our life philosophies....

I miss, i miss, i miss.........

PS. But cetainly not the stupid drills that we had to go thru, not the helmets we have to wear, not the waiting time we spend while waiting for things to happen, not the stupid orders others asked us to do, not the protocols that we had to follow...

NS Reservist 2009

Its now the second night of Reservist...

Been quite ok for the last two day. Yesterday spent one whole day at Range. Then today was doing IPPT in the morning snd then mortar drill in the noon. I still remembered that for the past few years, my detachment has always get Recon 1 for the test. But today during the practice, my team just cant get recon 1. Don know is it we too unmotivated or just that we cant do it. Hopefully we can get Recon 1 tmr, to maintain the record.

Been one year plus since my last reservist. Saw my many army friends and had a good time reminiscing about the past. Though we usually don contact each other after reservist, its seems like we have been regularly chatting up, not like the strange feeling u get when u met friends whom u haven seen for a long time. However, sometime s i still feel lost.

Read a book called Marley and Me this evening, after dinner. Not a bad book. Its about how a couple deals with an extremely active dog. Not a bad book. Those who wants to read it, can borrow from me.

Reservist 2009

Come to that time of the year again.

Am feeling so down since fri. Some says its a break from work. Personally, i don like it at all... I prefer to be with my kids, esp when i am rushing thru my syllabus.

Sianz.... Have to wear the uniform, do the things and wait for the things to happen...... Haiz............

Ps I'm Sorry

刚看过了Mobtv. 里头有这个节目叫做《对不起》。

这是一个让人有个机会对别人说对不起。

”对不起”三个字看起来非常容易，其实并非如此。

要说的时候，会被咽着
想写的时候，手会停止
需要表达时，从哪开始

“对不起”

该如何开始？
该如何结束？
该如何弥补？